It's so hard to find motivation these days. But maybe I'm not looking in the right place. Maybe I should look inside myself instead of outside sources. But, it's so hard to look at myself when I am trying to change that image. Maybe, that's an obstacle. Maybe I shouldn't change. Maybe, what I need has happened, but I haven't figured it out yet. Life has so many metaphors. So, which one is correct? Are they all correct? Does each one have a different meaning for different people and settings? What is life? So many questions. Yet, I do not strive for the answers. I want to learn them as they occur. Am I a walking lesson? Are others? I'm sure they are. I hope I can be. But I am not the one to judge that. I can only be who I am. But, what if I want to change? What if I can't? Sigh, more questions. I guess I have to wait. But I'll rush to that waiting point. . . .
