Been a while hasn't it? No, not just the last time I wrote one of these, but it's been a whole year. A lot of things have happened haven't they? Oh, a lot has happened in the past couple of months, I can be sure of that. A lot has gone through my mind as well. So many thoughts, so many emotions. Gets overwhelming sometimes.
Let's start off with talking about change. Feels like I talk about this topic a lot. But, I feel like I need to keep reminding myself of it. No matter how much you despise it, no matter how much you try to forget about it, not matter how hard you try to resist it, change will happen. And we are then forced to adapt. We are humans. That is what we do. We go through changes, and then we adapt to them. Heck, look at all the statuses that people put up about the Timeline change for Facebook. First couple of days people are like, "omg wtf I hate this new timeline thing! Quit changing Facebook!" One thing I have to say about that is, you better deal with it. We go though many evolutions through our time. It's your choice to deal with it or not. But here's another thing, if you stay in the past, you're going to be left behind and bad things are going to happen. I'll admit, I've been a bit behind on the changes. I am a slow adapter, I'll admit to that. I'll be slow on catching on to jokes, trends, education, whatever. It takes me a bit longer than the usual person. And realizing that is very difficult. It's a huge reality check. But you know what? I need to learn to change my methods in order to do well. That is my goal. That's one of my New Year's Resolutions. Change and Adapt.
People. Another element that is subject to change. We gain people, we lose people. This past year, I gained some friends. And I am very grateful of that. I found someone who is making me happy. Someone who is making me happy through some tough times I'm going though right now. Even though we may have our disputes already since of most likely my self-state, she's there. And some of my friends do give me support as well though some tough times. I do hope I can make some new friends as well. And there are some friends who have not given me support. There are some friends who I have lost, and who I feel like I am losing. I know one friend that I have seemed to have already lost. A mixed feeling about this loss, so I can't really describe it. Maybe this disconnection is good, but maybe it's not. I can't tell. What I do want to say is that I hope to reconnect with my lost friends if possible. I don't like losing friends because for one moment in my life, that is someone I can trust about something. Someone I can hang out with and have good times with. Even though we may have forgotten ourselves back then, time will remember us. I hope we can someday as well. Resolution: Become a person you, [Kevin], want to be. Be someone who you would like, no, someone who you would love. Become someone you want to strive to be.
Love. Now this is a very delicate topic to discuss for love is something that should be taken seriously. Love comes in many different forms such as the relationship between partners, family, friends, and yourself. Right now, I want to talk about the love within one's self. Why this one and not the others? Because it's something that has been on my mind, and I believe you have to love yourself and the things you are doing in order to truly love someone else. Love the things you are doing...Let me think about this for a minute. Love the things you are doing. Take a step back for a moment. How many times have you said, "I love what I'm doing right now." How many times have you said the opposite? Is the ratio in favor of the love side or not? What are you going to do to fix that? What are you going to do to keep that? Find that something that will make you happy. Something that will make you truly happy. Not what makes your peers happy, but what makes you feel pure joy inside yourself. It seems like happiness is the hardest things to find, along with love. But that's why those two go hand in hand. They are closely related, at least I believe so. So for this resolution: Find something you love. Find something that will make you happy. Find something that you want to strive for, something that you really want to go for and can't wait to get there. Motivation is a hard thing to grasp, but [Kevin], I know you can do it. Even though it may seem far off, even though when people doubt, try for it. Failure is not an option, but an opportunity. Strive to be the best. Strive to love, to be happy.
To end things off, there has been a thought that has gone through my mind. I wish we lived in a world where we live in a so called fantasy world. Here's my inner nerd coming out but I wish we lived in a world where could adventure places like in a video game. Where people are sent on journeys to become heroes. Either we live in a super futureistic world and we all have superhuman abilities, bulllets don't kill, swordplay is honored, and some other crazy stuff; or we live in the past where people wear steel armor when they go to battles, ride on horseback, swordplay is honored, and other things as well. Heck, I would love to live in a world of Pokemon. Who wouldn't? Ha, swordplay seems to occur in two of those things, but I have to admit, swordplay is pretty facinating in my opinion. But, the real reason why is because I feel like we live in a world where emotions are played, and not brought out in truth. If we were sent out on journeys, if we weren't bound to jobs, to money, to the economic standars, life would be interesting. I don't know how that would work exactly, so don't ask me how. I'm just pretty much going off of what I experience in video games and things I read. Yeah, I sound like a nerd and a hippie maybe, and you can judge all you want. But I'll let you know that I'm not going to go off and try stuff like that. But I'm just saying, I want true human emotions to play out more often then they do right now. It's like we don't express ourselves enough. We are all told what to do, we are all held to obligations, we are all held down by something. It's like the quote that the Dalai Lama said,
"The Dalai Lama was asked what surprised him the most;
he said, "Man, because he sacrifices his health in order to make money.
Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health.
And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present;
the result being that he does not live in the present or the future;
he lives as if he is never going to die, and then he dies having never really lived."
Do we live? Have you lived this past year? What are you going to do next year? Will you become a better person? Will you fufill your New Year's Resolutions? Will you live? Anyways, remember your resolutions, [Kevin]. Keep them. Keep them close along with the people that will support you. It may seem bleak, it may seem hard, it may seem impossible, but you can do it. I know you can. You know you can, and will.
I will succeed.
Happy New Year's everyone. May the year 2012, and the rest of the years bring the best of you. =)
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