(Posted originally 30 minutes before the midnight of my birthday)
In my last thirty minutes of being a minor, it's got me to think just a little bit more. Well, I wasn't born until around ten to ten thirty A.M., but that's besides the point. It's amazing how so many things have come out to what they are now. Looking back to when I was only in the low single digits of my age, I remember being invincible. Everything was possible. I could do anything when I grow up. It doesn't seem that hard, everybody is doing it. That's right, everybody is doing it. Everybody is growing up...Hard to take in once we really look at it. As the years go on, we never have a moment in time where we can just freeze time and space and look at the world. We hardly have enough time to stop and look at our own life. We have so much to do. But, how much time do we have? Did we want to do what we wanted to do in the time period we have been given up to now? Have I done what I wanted in this near to eighteen years of my life? I'll be the first to say it, no. At least, I haven't. The sad thing is that, we can't really make up time. We have to keep moving. We just have to restart on what we wanted to do. I hope I have changed some lives over the past years. And I hope that I can change more in the future. I have been changed by many lives. It's amazing how so many things can inspire, distraught, create, and destroy my life. One thing that has held me back the most is shyness. To the people I know close and are becoming close to, they know that shyness is no longer a major essence of my character. But looking back, I know I was shy when I was first talking to them. I keep breaking down barriers of that shyness. I owe it to my very close friends. It's amazing how just talking to someone, just doing a little action with them, can change their life for better, or for worse. In my life, I hope to change lives for the better. I hope to change my life for the better. Sigh, sometimes, I figure that I am too sensitive sometimes. Reduces my manliness, you know? Hahaha, yeah, yeah. So much has passed, so much to think about, so much I could be writing down, but I shall leave that for future notes. I want to spend these last few minutes thinking to myself about...Well, about a lot of things.
In my last thirty minutes of being a minor, it's got me to think just a little bit more. Well, I wasn't born until around ten to ten thirty A.M., but that's besides the point. It's amazing how so many things have come out to what they are now. Looking back to when I was only in the low single digits of my age, I remember being invincible. Everything was possible. I could do anything when I grow up. It doesn't seem that hard, everybody is doing it. That's right, everybody is doing it. Everybody is growing up...Hard to take in once we really look at it. As the years go on, we never have a moment in time where we can just freeze time and space and look at the world. We hardly have enough time to stop and look at our own life. We have so much to do. But, how much time do we have? Did we want to do what we wanted to do in the time period we have been given up to now? Have I done what I wanted in this near to eighteen years of my life? I'll be the first to say it, no. At least, I haven't. The sad thing is that, we can't really make up time. We have to keep moving. We just have to restart on what we wanted to do. I hope I have changed some lives over the past years. And I hope that I can change more in the future. I have been changed by many lives. It's amazing how so many things can inspire, distraught, create, and destroy my life. One thing that has held me back the most is shyness. To the people I know close and are becoming close to, they know that shyness is no longer a major essence of my character. But looking back, I know I was shy when I was first talking to them. I keep breaking down barriers of that shyness. I owe it to my very close friends. It's amazing how just talking to someone, just doing a little action with them, can change their life for better, or for worse. In my life, I hope to change lives for the better. I hope to change my life for the better. Sigh, sometimes, I figure that I am too sensitive sometimes. Reduces my manliness, you know? Hahaha, yeah, yeah. So much has passed, so much to think about, so much I could be writing down, but I shall leave that for future notes. I want to spend these last few minutes thinking to myself about...Well, about a lot of things.
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